Tori Spelling is processing her divorce in real time

 Tori Spelling is processing her divorce in real time — and anyone listening can follow along.

In the first episode of her brand-new podcast MisSpelling, the Beverly Hills, 90210 star opens up about filing for a dissolution of marriage from her ex, Dean McDermott, after 18 years, citing irreconcilable differences. One of the revelations in the episode is that Spelling, 50, didn't talk to the Canadian actor, 57, about the filing until the news broke last Friday; she calls him while recording the podcast.

"It's public," she says at the beginning of the episode. "I don't know what feels more like a punch in the stomach: that it's out there and it's final, or that I have to call him right now. S---, he's at work. He's at work, you guys, this sucks."

Spelling proceeds to leave McDermott a message: "Hey, it's T. I know you're working. Can you call me? It's important. Everything's fine, the kids are fine. But call me, please. Bye."

Tori Spelling and Dean McDermott. 

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The actress goes on to explain the proceedings. "I just filed for divorce," she says. "I just got word from my lawyer that it's public. There's this weird thing that I didn't know about before that you have to be careful with your ex — it's a he-said, she-said, who filed first. I had to file and go through the process, and then once it was accepted and publicly posted, then I'm allowed to call and fill in my ex. So I just called Dean, he's working, and I'm super nervous because I don't like confrontation."

In the middle of discussing her children, Spelling receives a call back from McDermott during the recording. "Hi. I'm okay, how are you?" she says on the call. "I hate to do this to you while you're in the middle of, you're going to work and everything. They've done it. It's like one, it's just the formality, it's like a one-sheet, you check off, and nex